In reality, I belong to the type of person who doesn't like to communicate with others. A few months ago, I retested my MBTI and found that my introverted nature is still very high, confirming this judgment.
However, as a fox who wanders in a river full of English fish, "speaking" has become an important part of improving my professional level (the four aspects of language learning: listening, speaking, reading, and writing). So when I entered school, I planned to change the current situation as much as possible - just this month, I participated in at least two group interviews and made an effort to interact with friendly people.
Last weekend, I went to the interview of the student union in the college. However, due to my negligence, I didn't submit the registration form. But with the thought that maybe it would still work, I went to the interview site in the drizzling rain, greeted the senior students at the scene, and anxiously waited (because it was a sudden decision, I didn't prepare any scripts or anything). Fortunately, the interview process went smoothly, and the senior students from the technical department didn't make it too difficult for me. Just when I was writing my last weekly journal, I was successfully hired. (But it could also be because there were too few people in the department conducting the interviews...)
To be honest, I was quite nervous during the interview process because it was the first time I faced the interviewers in front of so many people (I don't know how to describe it, so let's just say it like that) and answered their questions (to explain, the interview was conducted in a large conference room, with the interviewers in the front rows and the interviewees waiting in the back). But after the interview, I felt a sense of relief, like a huge burden had been lifted off my shoulders.
I still remember what the teacher said in our comprehensive English class on Wednesday when guiding us to speak. The general idea was that there is a difference between social anxiety and shyness. One is not willing to initiate conversations but can talk endlessly once they start, while the other genuinely does not want to speak and is reserved in their speech.
This statement had a great impact on me. Later, I realized that "social anxiety" itself is a type that is defined by people. As an old saying goes, rules are dead, but people can be alive (note: without inciting illegal behavior or negative influences). In other words, people can break free from this framework by doing certain things. I felt more relieved and everything became clearer.
Oh, now that you've read this far, you might be wondering about the other interview. Although it doesn't fall within the scope of this week, I'll briefly mention it in case someone is curious. There is a "University Student Innovation and Entrepreneurship Center" directly managed by the Academic Affairs Office in the school (in simpler terms, it's a science and technology innovation center plus a bunch of related clubs, but in a basic version). Before the open day collective visit, I thought it would be a good opportunity to get in touch with technology, so I quickly filled out their registration form while they were giving a presentation. After that, there was a relatively long waiting period, followed by an interview and a second interview. However, the second interview was not relevant to me because I didn't pass the first interview (crying).
Because it was the first week of classes, the academic pressure wasn't too great. Except for comprehensive English and phonetics, which require active participation, the rest of the classes can be considered as being in the background, which is quite friendly for me at the moment.
Of course, in order to solve this problem of mine, I also "spent an extra 5 yuan on a 3D printer" (source) and joined an association in the maker space. I have been there four or five times, but until the seminar this week, I didn't really think about the significance of the money spent. It wasn't until the evening before I went home that I attended the seminar and got two things for free:
I feel like the money was well spent.
The atmosphere in that association is quite harmonious and friendly (core values?). At least it was like that in the evening. I vaguely remember a moment of awkwardness - besides the sharing session, there was also a process of experiencing laser engraving for free, and the finished product could be taken home (something like the picture above). However, hardly anyone came during the evening. When the senior student from the modeling department asked in the group if anyone else was coming, I threw out a bait in the group saying that those who didn't register could come. Of course, I was eventually discovered because of the photos taken on the spot. The conversation that followed was quite awkward for a while, but it soon became more relaxed (thanks to the phrase "don't be so restrained"). I was even praised for "knowing more than me" because I opened Figma to show my design drafts, etc. (but I think it's mostly because I use Linux...). After that, I watched the process and also took a small NFC lamp from the previous event.
There is also a Future Technology Industry Expo this week, but it's not relevant to me, and the performance is not very impressive (except for the drone performance that couldn't be seen clearly from the back row), so I won't write about it.
Finally, we have come to the last part (looking up). Although this week was busy and I didn't learn much, I still managed to get through the week smoothly. How should I put it, even though we are constantly labeling people and may use these labels as standards to judge others, "social anxiety" is actually one of the "labels" that divides groups, but we should not be restricted by it and should strive to break free. The MBTI test is also more about labeling ourselves and finding that feeling of "being a wanderer in the world" in the vast sea of people. As for its reliability, it completely depends on oneself. Lastly, I want to quote a comment from the documentary "INFJ-T 4W5 Legend" on Bilibili:
"The world is wrong because it is always on the path to the right. Only after you truly accept your true self can others accept the real you."
In a low voice: I originally wanted to use the Vercel og image playground to create a cover, but I couldn't solve the problem of cross-domain images, so I temporarily used Figma to design the cover... And the background of the cover was taken by myself at school on the last day before going home, but no one asked me.